Monster

Yesterday, I met my monster.

I never thought I have one.
Never thought I needed one.
Never thought there is always one lurking within me... waiting, just waiting for the right time to get unleashed.

Now I finally understood why T6 behaved the way he did.
He had a monster too.
But I couldn't see it.. I didn't understand it then...
My nonchalent ways and detatched emotions frayed his edges.
From a strong, confident man who was handling millions in his business dealings with ease, he was at a total loss with me.
His monster took over, battling for a lost cause that I should, as the person closest to his heart, lend a hand to help in but didn't.

And even Jade. She had a monster too.
When I knew her, she was a smart, confident and sociable career woman with her own mind about things.
Things started to go downhill when he stepped into her life.
They were to get married but her monster reared its ugly head.
Oh how we rolled our eyes at her antics and we thought it was laughable.. silly even...
But now I understand.
Now I can feel her pain.

For the past month, I kept seeing it lurking at the corner.
Sometimes sliding up next to me when it thought i was not noticing.
Messing up with my thinking... screwing around with my mind.

Yesterday night, it came to me, face-to-face.
"Get away from me, you ugly thing," I said.
"I can't... for I am you," it hissed.
"LIES LIES LIES!!!!!!!!!" I screamed and tried to turn away from it's awful sight.
It held on to me and forced a mirror to my face, "Look. Tell me what you see."

I couldn't recognise the image looking back at me.
It's a splitting image of the monster standing in front of me.
It is me.
I am the Monster.